Let's Die Together!!!

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Controversy??
Scandalous??
Commit suicide??

Yep, I just did that. I dug my own grave.. literally..
I wonder.. How am I going to go through this night..
Laptop in front of me.. a bottle of Cactus (life goes on..)beside me.. papers all around me..

Ya Allah.. titipkanlah inspirasi kepadaku, hembuskanlah ilmu ke dadaku, angkatlah hijab di hadapanku..

Kerana..
I'm stuck!! On sociolinguistic thought paper " the consequences of language contact"

I blurted the title of this post to Nui and Fatin last night, when we sat together, reminiscing our days in this semester with the tons of works to be done and to be submitted. They laughed. Nui said she likes my 'tagline' (oho). Fatin said I often come out with lots of self-modified words. My, my..

Yep, yep.. come to think of it.. People will know when I'm stressed or out of ideas when I'm in 'crazy mode' or 'saat gila' sa. Saat 'gila' sa, dapat diteka bila sa mula beraksi lain dari kebiasaan ( kadang-kadang menari- nari sendiri) ataupun menyanyi lagu dangdut ( isy, isy). Well, tapi, sayangnya sa hanya akan jadi seseorang yang 'gila-gila' di rumah atau depan kawan-kawan rapat sa. Bagus juga sebab cuma orang yang eksklusif ja dapat tengok, tidak lah jatuh air muka. Tapi, kadang-kadang orang yang 'happy-go-lucky' ni mudah dan menarik bila dia 'presentation'. I always feel that I'm not animated enough and I'm afraid that my students will not find me interesting. Hmm.. nda pa. Sa akan atasi juga semua keraguan tu nanti.

Lama sudah tidak menulis dalam blog ni. Nampak tul hangat-hangat taik ayam ( seripalis ). Sibuk bah sem ni. Hmm.. alasan lagi..

Only few weeks more before this sem ends.. And next semester will be my last sem in UiTM. Coming next July, I'll be somewhere in Sabah doing my practicum..

Cepatnya masa berlalu.. Mo abis sudah 6 tahun pengajian.. Macam nda percaya pula.. All those painful and conflicting years of growing up in foundation years and degree years..

Huhu..

Apapun, mari siapkan dulu sociolinguistic ni. Harap - harap boleh siapkan and submit tomorrow..

Comments

  1. azharinhoOctober 12, 2009 at 2:44 PM

    rasa nya pun baru je masuk sem baru tp rupanya hujung sem sudah kita ni...apa pun yang kita dapat sem ni...pengalaman,pahit manis,menjadi guru yang akan menjadikan kita lebih bersedia untuk menghadapi idup kita yang telah kita rancang...semoga kau berjaya dalam idup kau...

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  2. awa@alfurqanahOctober 15, 2009 at 7:34 PM

    yup... btul..

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